Yesterday while I was attempting to study anatomy Katy decided it was a good time to rearrange JD’s room. It’s nice to have a change in there, but during the process all his stuffed animals ended up in the crib with him. He played the entire time we were moving things around.
Last night in anatomy we were learning about muscles, and about the heart. I just started to cry, no warning, tears just started to fall. It made me really kind of mad that I couldn’t control my emotions. I’m not thinking everyone noticed but I still felt stupid. I try not to think about my heart too much anymore, but learning about the nitty gritty of it last night just splashed in my face that mine doesn’t work like it’s supposed to and that it’s the reason JD’s our only child. I know I’m so very blessed to have him, but every once in a while it’s hard not to get emotional about it. I just wish it hadn’t happened during class. Thank goodness I’ve made an amazing friend in the class and she was uber supportive.