The Nectarine jam turned out much better than I thought it would.
While I was praying that while I was pregnant I wouldn’t have to deal with any kind of depression I was wrong. The past few days have been so hard. Being big my whole life I’ve had to deal with esteem issues off an on through out the years. Getting bigger so quickly is more emotionally painful than I though it would be. Seeing a photo or catching a glimpse in the mirror is striking a very sour cord. On top of that there are the normal worries of becoming a parent and constant fear that something will still go wrong with the pregnancy. It’s a part of life, but right now it’s a bit emotionally painful.