Day 2: A favorite movie

I’ll pick different ones than I did here.

The Holiday

Skirts Ahoy

Ever After

Catch Me if You Can

Band of Brothers

Anchors Aweigh

 

Adventures in Life

Bottoms Up!

What would life be like without twists and adventure.  JD was diagnosed with Epilepsy yesterday and started anti seizure medicine today.  Thank goodness for tablets we can dissolve in drinks since he won’t put the pill in his mouth.

He’s been doing so incredibly well, or maybe we are just getting more used to the quirks and autism.  It’s hard to realize he has yet another diagnosis on his records but it’s life.  At least once again with a diagnosis comes ways we can help him.  I’m thrilled about the service dog and can’t wait till October.  It’s so close.  We are very excited.

Gwen is cracking us up right now.  Besides her cute way of saying please (picture Roger rabbit and a lot of spit) she now likes to ask “Where daddy go?”  She and deeds are playing a lot better together but it also brings the fun sibling issues.  Lots of screaming and pushing.  The joys of motherhood.  I’m so glad they have each other.

Next week I start back at UVU, and this term is probably going to be a killer with Zoology and Math courses up the wazoo.  Deeds starts school on Tuesday and he is gone in the afternoon so hopefully Gwen will nap then and I can use that time to study.

 

 

 

Captain America and The Mask Have A Lot In Common

So, I saw Capitan America and it is a real good movie, but I found some humor in the Red Skull character who I think compares to Jim Carrey’s character in the Mask.

 

Max

Max fluffy and groomed

I have come to a very hard decision after a few months of thinking, praying and pondering.

We need to find Max a new home. Having 2 dogs, 2 kids (one with special needs) and the service dog at the new place would be chaos.

Why fluffy Maxie? To be honest it is because Daisy is so good with kids.  It’s not that Max isn’t.  He just avoids them really.  Daisy likes to be in the middle of the crowd and takes the abuse from kids swimmingly.  Max also has to be groomed every 6-8 weeks, or kept shaved.  I just don’t have the time of means right now to give him the attention he needs.  Its a shame because he is SO adorable all groomed.  Every groomer I’ve taken him to comments on what a beautiful Bichon he is.

I love Max, I’ve had him since he was small enough to fit into a coat pocket.  I’ve had him longer than I’ve been married to Jeremy (His fluffy face is even in one of my bridal portraits).  This is a very difficult thing for me.  He isn’t getting the love and attention he needs here right now and it will only get harder to do so when the service dog gets here.

I won’t just list him online and I WILL NOT take him to a shelter. Honestly if we can’t find a good fit for him somewhere then we will just make it work, but I’m not sure that is fair to him.

Deeds and Max

If anyone is interested let me know please. He is about 6 years old, pure Bichon Frise, does not shed (hypoallergenic) and house broken.  He is playful, but content to perch on the back of the couch.  We’ve taken him to the dog park many times and he loves other dogs, but the only dog he’s ever lived with is Daisy (not sure about cats).  If you have any specific questions just ask me.

This is a very hard decision for me so please no judgment needed. I am a believer that when you get a pet it is a task you accept until the pet dies.  Trying to explain to Deed that we are trying to find a home for Max is very hard, I struggle to do it with out crying.  However with Deeds special needs and the Service Dog coming I have to think of what is best for everyone. Including Max.

Max after bathtime

 

Day 49: Hopes, dreams, and plans for the next 365 days

It is currently 2:18am and I am up with a throbbing. THROBBING. tooth ache.  I thought fillings were supposed to help the situation, not make it 20x worse?  I think it’s finally time to call the dentist (2 weeks later).  The plus side to my pain… YOU GET A BLOG POST!

I believe this post requires bullet points.  Here is my list in no particular order:

• We fundraise all the money to travel to Ohio and get JD’s Service dog (www.dog4deeds.com)
• Said Service dog helps mommy keep tabs on her uber intelligent Houdini
• I can get another year of good grades at the University
• My heart finally shows dramatic improvement instead of regression or standing still
• I loose 50 pounds
• We get to up-sell the Blazer for a newer SUV that Jeremy fits in a bit better (sorry babe)
• Jeremy gets his dream job
• We move somewhere with air conditioning
• The insurance companies just approve the Genetic testing that should be done for Deeds and I don’t have to fight for it
• Did I mention my heart should improve?
• Deeds continues to make great progress
• Gwen starting to talk to us
• This tooth ache goes away
• I hire a house keeper (You said dreams right?)
• My heart improves (can you tell it’s been bothering me lately)

To be honest as long as we are all still alive and kickin’ in 365 days then it will all be okey dokey.  You know it is all okay in the end, and if it isn’t okay yet then it isn’t the end.  :-)

 

Day 48: A photo of you right now

Oh prepare to be amazed at my beauty:

(We took this yesterday afternoon but couldn’t get it to upload.)

 

 

Day 47: Birthday wish list

Since I broke my ankle right before my birthday this year and sickness messed up our 5 year anniversary plans 2 weeks later my wish is that we will be able to celebrate both this summer with a little getaway.

 

Day 45: A letter to yourself a year ago

Hey Bob,

I know you are scared about going back to school, but don’t be.  I’m not sure you want to know this now but you not only finish the Master Bodyworker program but you go back to UVU.  I know it’s a shocker. You are smart, too bad it took you so long to realize it.  Would have been so much easier when you were 19! Ha ha.

Now lets talk about Deeds.  I know that you just had a specialist come see him, and he qualified for Kids on the Move because he isn’t talking… but mommy you are just looking at the tip of the ice burg.  I don’t say this to scare you but I want you to know that you will probably be having a few mental and emotional breakdowns in the next year, and that is OK.  At first everything is scary and new but remember JD is still JD.  The quirky guy that he is.  Try the therapies, they will work.  Keep working hard and he will talk to you, keep on working.  I know it is hard that he doesn’t want to touch you.  Hugs end with screaming and he just wants Daddy but endure, it DOES get better.  It is a marathon not a sprint, and guess what?  There are so many other parents going through the same things you will be.  FIND THEM.  The support you can get from them is worth it’s weight in gold.  Cling to the positive, and let go of the negative.  Focus on the good and ignore the bad.  Your life will be dramatic enough, you don’t need to add to it by having people around that bring you down.

Pray, cling to Jeremy, cherish every moment with your kids.  Gwen grows up so fast.  It’s a new experience every day because she is so different from Deeds.  Don’t be afraid to ask for help.  There is a time and season for everything.  You will need a lot of help over the next year but remember one day it will be your turn to help others.

Love,

Me, well You…

 

Day 44: Something that fascinates you and why

This is a crappy phone pic of an amazing place.  Before JD was born we were able to go to Guatemala. This is Tikal.  The entire trip was amazing but these awesome buildings were really inspiring to hike to the top of and look out at everything.  As we walked around listening to howler monkeys I was fascinated the entire time.

 

Day 43: A picture of your favorite place in the world

 

Castle from the Adventureland Bridge

 

 

I have a lot of favorite places, for many different reasons.  I picked Disney World.  I miss working there, and one day I WILL eventually get back for a visit.  I loved standing on the Adventureland bridge before the park opened and looking at the castle and the park all quiet.  It’s a part of the parks not everyone gets to see.  I also loved working on the riverboat, with the exception of the layered costume, Florida heat and the steam.  :-)

 

Liberty Belle Riverboat